while everyone else had birthday fun, i was PISSED. oh man...it was so hard today. all the things i used to totally HOUSE down were in the classroom...subs, doritos, cup cakes, sheet cake, brownies...ugh. i had to leave the room a lot and sit in the cafeteria by myself because i couldn't stand looking at it and smelling it and watching other people eat it...
imagine a crack addict watching someone else smoke it....that's how i feel about food. icky icky. totally not fun. i fantasize about diving into an enormous cake and eating my way out...swimming in it...using the frosting as a pillow.
but i made it through the day without losing my abstinence and i didn't give in to the temptation to throw away my freedom from compulsive eating. i am grateful right now that i am NOT 230 pounds and i am healthy and happy. food is not worth it.
happy eating! XO
man! good for you!!
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