i weighed in today. 145. um. wow. kinda pissed off right now. i started back into abstinence at 145. started p90x at 142...
i am experiencing rage.
perhaps you're thinking... "oh, tina, stop it! you're beautiful!" or "everybody's weight fluctuates" or "you're gaining muscle"
F---k that, man!!! F---K THAT!!!
all i know is i have been working my ASS off and this is extremely frustrating. so i tried on a pair of tight pants that i can only wear on really "good" days...like when i'm not menstruating and it's not humid etc and i can hardly button them and i feel like a stuffed sausage. so that's how i know that something is wrong. i know you can't go by the scale, you have to go by your clothes and so this is real, hard evidence.
OMG i'm so angry, i can't even make this post humorous.
ok so what am i gonna do about it? what kinds of things have i been doing that are hindering my progress??
1. i do not always weigh and measure with care. i continue to want to "eyeball" my food and i always eyeball BIG.
2. i make poor food choices. i eat a lot of cheese instead of lean meat like fish or chicken. i eat mayo and ranch dressing instead of olive oil.
3. i eat a lot of salt on my veggies. i need to ween myself off a little...i really tend to go overboard.
so can i make those slight adjustments today? absolutely. i have become willing to because i only hurt myself when i don't follow directions and when i make a decision based off of angry, self-pity ridden feelings (i.e. "i've given up so much already, i deserve to eat extra salt, a little extra fat, and cheese instead of chicken".
here we go. happy eating. xo
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